Today, February 7th, marks my three year soberversary. Some stop counting however I feel the need to celebrate my milestones. So I will pause today more than a few times to thank God for opening my heart to Him, removing the obsession of my addiction and providing me with the strength to remain sober for 1,097 days. Most importantly I thank God for continuing the journey past the sober-thing and allowing me to grow closer to Him everyday which has made me a better man and father.
I’ll also give myself some credit. I was down on myself for several years for not being able to stop drinking and allowing it to destroy the things I valued most in my life. So I know I deserve to have some pride in my accomplishment. My tendency is not to mention or remind anyone of the anniversary but I’ve learned that is a trap leading to self pity or resentments.
The reminders will be all around me along with four hundred collegues at a annual conference this year at Auburn University in Alabama. There will be a lot of drinking at this event and even the interactive app they’ve asked us to download for the conference has a brewery theme this year. Cheers!
It was at this same conference three years ago when I woke up in a Charleston, SC hospital with stitches over my eye, no memory of how I got there and two new collegues uncomfortably waiting for me in the waiting room.
This year, as with the last two in Dallas and the gulf coast of Alabama, I’m prepared with local AA contacts, a list of meetings, and permission from myself to leave the drinking events as soon as it gets a bit uncomfortable. Today I carry a faith & hope with me.
I’ll also spend much of my day reflecting on all of the people who have stepped into my life and helped me get to three years of recovery. I no longer believe in coincidences and truly trust that God sends people into my life so that we can do His work in eachother’s lives.
This Saturday I’ll receive my 3-year chip surrounded by my two sons and my local AA family at my home group meeting, “What’s Good About Today”. This morning, I’m starting my third recovery anniversary waking on the campus of Auburn University, saying my prays, working out and then attending the Eye Openers Group AA meeting on campus…let’s see who God brings into my life today.
Thanks for taking the time to read my thoughts. In faith,